Enlightenment

(Opera voice when a light from heaven shines down to earth)
*Haaaaaaa...............*

I have been enlightened..

Well, not really 'enlightened' actually. More of, was reminded.
I think it fits better when I say, "I was revived back from the dead!" o.0

Anyways, I was revived back from the dead. I have been living in my coffin, buried six feet under. Pushing up daisies for god's sake!
But now I'm back.
Chatt is BACK YO! and he is better than ever.

My thanks to the closest brother I've had, Mr. Sean C. Garver for his ears, wisdom and constant reminders of what I use to tell him back in the old days.

Yeah! Chatt is my name and hell, don't ever try to play me in my GAME! Hell yeah!
I feel good, and its time to get back down to business.

So, my dear beloved, lets take a walk shall we?

*RRIIIINNNGG!! (And my mum called me)*

WTF?! what a nice timing.. -.-

Well this sucks.

If money grew on trees..

If only money grew on trees, I swear my whole room will be a jungle of money trees.
If only the games we play, the money we earn in those games can be redeemed for real money.
If only these were true, I'd be living a happy life.
No worries for the rest of my life. Hakunamatatta!
Hangin loose brah..

But No. The world is never that easy.

You know, I know, we all know, that economy is still facing its financial crisis and countries are still trying to recover from the big, recent recession blow.

And we also know that, we as teenagers need money to survive.
For shopping, Food, accessories, Food, transportation fee, More Food, personal interests, even more Food, and extra tidbits and loads of Food! when we go out.
With that, you could technically say that I've been 6 feet under, pushing up daisies for a few months now and still pushing strong.

Fuck, where did all my money run off to!? (I dunno, you tell me. I'm just a reader!)
I know, I'm asking to myself.. -.- (Ouh, I knew that. Haha! And you thought I was really talking to you! Haha!)
Fuck off biatch!

I'm talking to myself again.. Damn it. Think straight.. *knocks head*

Yes, eventhough my face is a wall. But I still feel the guilt whenever I ask my parents for money. Especially when I have to top up my ezlink card almost every week.
I hardly go out thanks to this money problem. And I was suppose to get $150 from a friend today. But he hasn't gotten his pay yet. I sure hope I receive it soon.
I've got lotsa stuff to pay man. Damn balls...

Well this sucks.

Look me in the eyes.

Shit, this is the first time something this bad has happened to me.
What the Fuck is wrong with me?! Damn.
I really need a chill pill right now, if there's such a thing.

I'm not even stressed with school no more. I just want this over and done with.
My dear beloved, please, open your eyes.
Really, look at me in the eyes, and tell me.

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Can't you see that I wanna be
there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one
Do you notice I'm gone
Where do you run to so far away

I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you, I miss you so

I'm writing again
These letters to you, aren't much I know
But I'm not sleeping, you're not here
The thought stops my heart
Do you notice I'm gone
Where do you run to so far away

I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so
I want you to know that
I miss you, I miss you so

-Letters To You by Finch

Well this sucks.

AYG Appreciation Night

The AYG Appreciation Night was held in the Singapore Indoor Stadium on 10 July 2009, Started at 7pm, ended at 10.30pm.

What I think about the event? It sucked elephant balls damn it! HAHAHA!
Sorry..I just love saying that. And, I almost lost my AYG pass and Camp pass there! If not for the 2 very helpful and alert lady cleaners there, I wouldn't be looking at my passes now.
God bless, saints like the both of them deserve more.
Oh, btw, that's not all either. After we left the event, we went to KFC in Kallang Cineleisure to have dinner. My freaking white long sleeve shirt was hungry too and tried some of the chilli. WTF!! And he blamed me for the mess he did to himself. Damn it.

And to top everything off, I jus had a (confirmed failure) Circuit Analysis re-test earlier that day.
So I was really hoping to chill out and relax during the whole event.

Not to worry, tomorrow's guitar class.
Hope it will turn out better. It's music anyways. :D
And after that, out to try relax again. My dad is asking my to take a break and relax myself.
I should follow his advice. I mean, it has never fail me. Why should it fail me now right? Uh...I guess.

Well this sucks.

Confession of the Paper Hearts

I have a confession to make..

I'm not fine, I was never fine and I never will be fine. Not till I, they and us cn go through this road peacefully.

Go figure..
Oh god. I'm fucking losing it man. This is bad!
Aiden, get you're head in the game.. In the game.

Insights.
Since I entered polytechnic, I've been living with a knife pierced through my heart. It's been stuck there ever since. The agony..
So now, the wound is getting worst. I need to get that thing out.
I need her to pull it out for me.
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I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought it's time you'd realize it's over, over

It's not the way I choose to live
But something somewhere's gotta give
As sharing in this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I don't care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom, it's now or never
Is it all, or are we just friends
Is this how it ends, with a simple telephone call
You leave me here, with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it

Then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it, know it

Cause I want it all or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom, it's now or never
Is it all, or are we just friends
Is this how it ends, with a simple telephone call
You leave me here, with nothing at all
-All or Nothing by Westlife

Shit, I ran outta tissue..

Well that sucks.