Imperfections.

Yeah.. Shit happens. Things can get very confusing for me..

Coz sometimes the things you do just doesn't make sense to me. I need you to tell me straight what you mean when you do certain things.

I understand that you have to walk away whenever you're angry, that's how you cool off. but I forget things. I'm sorry..

But I admit i was wrong. I have my imperfections. And you've given me so many chances. And I appreciate that. But as much as I want to, I'm still trying to get things right.

I'm pissed and frustrated at myself.. It's not like I don't want to.. I love you so fucking much. And the pain I'm going through just to sort my imperfections out for you is nothing if it makes you happy.. I'd do anything to make you happy.

My mentor* use to tell me this..
"Change takes time, and along the way, mistakes will be made, big or small they are proof of a learning experience. And with that experience, will change only come.."

I'm not giving excuses nor have I done any of the pain i caused on purpose... But I really need you to know that this is the most definite way I can learn. It's from the mistakes that I've done.

Please believe me.. I love you..

-Chatt


*My mentor's name is Raymond. He was in NUS when he mentored me in secondary school for my anger management program then later he became a personal mentor, guiding me with certain things in life after the program was over in sec 4...

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I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.

Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

-Just A Dream by Nelly