So it was in the month of February, a day after her birthday.
We took a walk along the bridge down to the bay where we sat and watched the ships sail past beneath the night sky.We talked. Like old friends, we couldn't stop.
I leaned against her, and she smiled.
Oh and her smile, brightens even the darkest skies.
God I miss her already...
Her siblings call her Icah (pronounces as "i - chah"/ cute right! haha)
Well I call her "baby" (mushhyy musshyy~ ) :P
She's an Aquarius.
She's one of a kind. She's everything to me.
She's cute, adorable, funny, bubbly, loving, independent, did i mention adorable? :D
She's my sun, she's my moon, she's the air i breathe..
(Sounds very exaggerated huh? Haha. But you get my drift..)
I felt like I can do anything that night. I felt like I could fly!
I've never felt so happy before.. She might just be the one? could be? maybe? probably :/
Whatever it is, when I hugged her that night, I just wanted time to stop. So that I can hold her tight in my arms forever..
Back to reality!
That was our first day out together.. After sending her off, I smiled all the way back home!
Boy, you cannot believe how in love I am with this girl..
It's the first time I felt this way in what..3, 4 exes? or was it 5? ( I'm sorry, I forgot. Crap -.- )
Anyways, there was also this other time we were having dinner at a local hawker centre called "Sinaran Catering". In the midst of waiting for our food to be served, you would never believe this.. My family came strolling in.. HAHAHA!
And when I say family, I meant mum, dad, sister, brother.. Now wasn't that an awkward moment... You should've seen the look on her face! She nearly freaked! Hahaha!
Alright..So we went over to join my family for dinner.. ( meet the in-laws? haha )
My parents were TOTALLY cool with me and her together.. How awesome can they be! HAHA. I love them so much. <3
And there are alot of other happy times we had. Unforgettable, every single one of 'em. If only I had a camera so that I can keep a solid memory of all our wonderful times together.. Hmm.. Alright, I'm gonna get a camera!
My 'ol pal Nicholas was talking to me about a Canon Powershot S95 and it sure sounds like what I need.. Maybe I'll check that out. :)
And you ask,"You've never fought with her in 6 months? That's amazing!"
Of course there were conflicts.. But I guess it's a matter of give and take?? We try sort things out in one way or another, talk things out try to make things better for our future..
But what I'm really afraid of is me hurting her.. I've got this crazy temper inside me.. A monster within that I have tried to control countless times yet failed. And I'm still trying to tame this... this Beast I call it. I've gone for courses, seminars, talks, and even mentorship programs on anger management and self-improving, self-reawakening shit, but all to no avail. Not that I've never tried. I've been trying since I was 6 (years old). It's just ridiculous, I swear.
If only there's a way to get rid of this stupid thing...Or maybe I'm not trying hard enough? :/
God, I pray that day won't come where I'd blow up infront of her. And with all the might that I have, I WILL try my very best to control this beast inside me to prevent any further harm towards my friends, family and loved ones, especially her.. Sometimes I do hate myself.. I guess it's karma for the bad things I've done in the past. :/
Oh well. Whatever happens, just know this..
I love you with my heart.. And I won't ever try to deliberately hurt you physically and/or emotionally, cause harm to you, nor leave you. This I promise you.. :)
And if I ever do break my promise in the future, please know I am truly sorry for my mistakes and that I will never have done whatever I did on purpose. If it was on purpose, it's for a good cause which I will most definitely inform you off...
If we ever have to part, well lets not hope for this.. I wouldn't know what I'd do without you.
It hurts just thinking about it..
I love you baby.
-Chatt
God I miss her already...
Her siblings call her Icah (pronounces as "i - chah"/ cute right! haha)
Well I call her "baby" (mushhyy musshyy~ ) :P
She's an Aquarius.
She's one of a kind. She's everything to me.
She's cute, adorable, funny, bubbly, loving, independent, did i mention adorable? :D
She's my sun, she's my moon, she's the air i breathe..
(Sounds very exaggerated huh? Haha. But you get my drift..)
I felt like I can do anything that night. I felt like I could fly!
I've never felt so happy before.. She might just be the one? could be? maybe? probably :/
Whatever it is, when I hugged her that night, I just wanted time to stop. So that I can hold her tight in my arms forever..
Back to reality!
That was our first day out together.. After sending her off, I smiled all the way back home!
Boy, you cannot believe how in love I am with this girl..
It's the first time I felt this way in what..3, 4 exes? or was it 5? ( I'm sorry, I forgot. Crap -.- )
Anyways, there was also this other time we were having dinner at a local hawker centre called "Sinaran Catering". In the midst of waiting for our food to be served, you would never believe this.. My family came strolling in.. HAHAHA!
And when I say family, I meant mum, dad, sister, brother.. Now wasn't that an awkward moment... You should've seen the look on her face! She nearly freaked! Hahaha!
Alright..So we went over to join my family for dinner.. ( meet the in-laws? haha )
My parents were TOTALLY cool with me and her together.. How awesome can they be! HAHA. I love them so much. <3
And there are alot of other happy times we had. Unforgettable, every single one of 'em. If only I had a camera so that I can keep a solid memory of all our wonderful times together.. Hmm.. Alright, I'm gonna get a camera!
My 'ol pal Nicholas was talking to me about a Canon Powershot S95 and it sure sounds like what I need.. Maybe I'll check that out. :)
And you ask,"You've never fought with her in 6 months? That's amazing!"
Of course there were conflicts.. But I guess it's a matter of give and take?? We try sort things out in one way or another, talk things out try to make things better for our future..
But what I'm really afraid of is me hurting her.. I've got this crazy temper inside me.. A monster within that I have tried to control countless times yet failed. And I'm still trying to tame this... this Beast I call it. I've gone for courses, seminars, talks, and even mentorship programs on anger management and self-improving, self-reawakening shit, but all to no avail. Not that I've never tried. I've been trying since I was 6 (years old). It's just ridiculous, I swear.
If only there's a way to get rid of this stupid thing...Or maybe I'm not trying hard enough? :/
God, I pray that day won't come where I'd blow up infront of her. And with all the might that I have, I WILL try my very best to control this beast inside me to prevent any further harm towards my friends, family and loved ones, especially her.. Sometimes I do hate myself.. I guess it's karma for the bad things I've done in the past. :/
Oh well. Whatever happens, just know this..
I love you with my heart.. And I won't ever try to deliberately hurt you physically and/or emotionally, cause harm to you, nor leave you. This I promise you.. :)
And if I ever do break my promise in the future, please know I am truly sorry for my mistakes and that I will never have done whatever I did on purpose. If it was on purpose, it's for a good cause which I will most definitely inform you off...
If we ever have to part, well lets not hope for this.. I wouldn't know what I'd do without you.
It hurts just thinking about it..
I love you baby.
-Chatt
